My Sun Devotional is going much better this week. I find that it comes to my head when I start to feel stressed, and helps me to invoke the warmth of the sun when I most need it. It’s a blessing to finally feel like I’m doing things “correctly” even though I understand that isn’t the purpose of the discipline. My first monthly retreat day was also done this week, and it was not quite what I expected. I woke up earlier than usual in order to have time to do my devotional at my altar. I stood, still trying to shake the sleep from my eyes, and expressed just how important it was for me to continue along the path toward becoming clergy with words that I can’t seem to remember. I don’t typically eat breakfast, but I made sure to say a simple prayer at lunchtime to the Earth Mother to thank her for my food and for helping me become who I am.
Gaia, earth mother, you who sustains and supports all living things
thank you for providing the nourishment and fulfillment that I need
both in my physical life and in my spiritual one.
Without you, life would not be possible.
Glorious Gaia, thank you for your blessings!
I spent my day working, as I typically do, but tried to keep my spirituality in mind. To help with this I have created a small altar space on my desk, including representations of the fire, well, and tree. It gives me peace to see it there, and allows me to remember my spirituality in a very technical world. I’ve placed it right next to my computer monitor, so it is always in my peripheral vision, so even when I’m working on something else it’s always in the corner of my thoughts, both during the “retreat day” and during every day of work. It helps remind me of who it is I want to be, and where my focus is needed.
With supper, I once again said my prayer to Gaia, thanking her for her blessings. I spent the evening with my family, reading mythology stories to my son, and enjoying their company. Then after I had put him to bed, I did my Solo offering rite to the Earth Mother and the Gatekeeper. I used the ritual found in Appendix 1 in the First Circle Guide for the Clergy Training Program as it was written. During the workings, I felt the need to put more thought into the omen I had received, so I knelt before my altar and began to focus on the flames of the fire. Overall, I determined that while this doesn’t necessarily appear to be a favorable omen, the message is that while there may be rough times ahead, if I continue down this path I will ultimately be able successful and able to move forward.
Greek Alphabet Oracle -- Phi -- Take responsibility for your actions
Omega -- there will be a poor harvest, or autumn will be difficult
Rho -- If you will hold your ground for only a short time, you will
be able to proceed